i deliver my deadly speech
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
yesterday was my mother's birthday...
i never prepare any present to give her cuz
to me it's very difficult for me to give her...
i don't know what's the problem with me...
juz can not do it...but now i am a bit guilty...
yesterday also bought a winnie the pooh with the eeyore cap...
as u can see i am very childish one...
i love donkey a lot because it is like me blur blur one....
recently i am addicted to song by avril lavinge...
especially the song "RUNAWAY" and "WHEN YOU'RE GONE"...
i really feel like running away from the problem i am facing now...
today i come late for sch again, this's the 11th times...
i am afraid that i might get suspension from sch...
which i don't wish to...but i juz can't help it at night i juz cannot fall asleep,
ytd i slept at around 4am...(estimated)
something more worse is that i am asking myself question then ans myself...
i am getting mad!!!sometime i thought i got depression as i had got all of the symptoms...
i am juz too sad and stress that i cried for around 2 hrs...
until my eyes's swollen
i really want to say sry to the peoples who are concern of me...
cuz i juz cut myself again today....i juz can't help with it...
i know that i can't run away from the problem...
i already tried my best to be strong...
but it's toturing me...
i really feel like breaking down...
i also tried my best not to give up on myself...
but everything is not within my control...
for this few days i think i will not be updating as i need to study for my exam!!!!
I AM REALLY VERY TIRED!!!!
SAD;xue yi
died off at: 8:16 PM;
