my tuition start at sec 3 math liao..
think there will be a lot of formula to rmb for the whole bk...
think i still can manage ba...
on tue i went tuition,
then i met one teacher from the sch...
don't know him well...
so never greet him....
ytd i keep on coughing until i can't slp sia...
then my spine damn pain sia...
hai....so sian...
i want to join the rowing course which start on 8 dec.
i was sort of being attracted by this sport,
since i join the program in sch...
my mother hope that i won't be joining it...
bcos of the dragon boat incident...
she say that it's very dangerous bcos i don't know how to swim...
i agreed to it too...
but i think i will go for swimming lesson...
really hope that i can join it...
today i can't meet clara they all..
sian...
think i will go tml...
but i don't know how to go downtown there..
gtg...
SAD;xue yi
died off at: 6:54 PM;
Thursday, November 22, 2007
i am not really in good health now..
keep on coughing...
and spine hurts as each day pass...
think i need to go for a whole body check up ba...
sian...
don't like it...
i always hate hospital, clinic, nurses and doctors...
but now i am left with no choice liao...
everyday was bored then...
got nothing to do...
want to look for a job but now it's too late...
so now i juz stay ay home to rest and hope
that the pain will go away...
and i read one book and found one paragraph quite interesting..
but i think that there's some ppl find it emo...
it wrote :
He reached beneath his long hair for the knife. He held it
in his right hand and turned over his left hand until the palm
was up and the wrist and inside of his arm was available to
the blade. He was thinking of nothing but finding relief. All
his nerve ends screamed for it. He sat making short decisive
cuts in the skin between wrist and elbow. He switched the
knife to his left hand and began operating on his right arm
the same way. Blood oozed from the cuts and dripped onto
the floor.
then there's still one more sentence writng.
'He'd have to remember this remedy when his fears and
his anxieties grew impossible to bear.'
this book is like quite vulgar..
keep on saying the word fuck and fucking...
i won't ever let my mother read this book
bcos she will think that i am siao...
to me i find the book perfectly ok....
gtg...
stop crapping...
SAD;xue yi
Monday, November 19, 2007
today i got my cough back again..
keep on coughing..
when i coughing, my spine will be in pain..
wtf...
actually i want to meet clara, ly n cy today...
but my stupid backbone loh!!
always give me prob de...
this morning i want to look for my hp but can't find it!!!
damn it...
so i give up looking for it...
but after that i found it inside my jacket...
i go wrap it up..what the hell!!!
my mother suggest that i sld go take a x=ray..
but i don't feel like going...
waste of money only...
plus i scare abt the result of it...
wonder whether my father is a male or female...
always like to nag...
and laugh at others...
and say bad thing behind a person...
wtf...
irksome of him!!!
really wish to tell him: I HATE U!!!
thk u for thinking that you are my everything and i will die without
u in my life!!!
a pack of lies!!!
fuck off!!!
each and every second i hear, are like hell...
can't stand you!!!
why sld i listen to u???
now then i realise that i hate almost all my neighbours!!!
always have those fucking faces..
except for some only!!
n some a very kpo...
how i wish i can live on my own...
gtg liao...
heard my fucking father kp liao...
SAD;xue yi
Thursday, November 15, 2007
ytd went back to sch for choir and dental app.
it so sian..
repeat the same song for a long time...
until i feel like slping...
alright after abt 1 hr...
those 'bitch' come in...
with their dear baby bf...don't what they doing loh...
can date a boy younger than them...
wtf...like no one want them like that...
they come in means no peace..
when the whole choir is singing..
they keep on toking like everyone is invisible...
fuck off!!!
not i really like to scold ppl loh...but their behaviour make me
scold them...
i seldom criticise ppl de loh...
after practice still need to move the tables back...
tmd my spine hurts once i carry one table or a few chairs...
wtf...
then i called clara...
tok tok tok liao...
i went to the knowledge zone to wait until 1.10pm
for my dental app...
it so sian waiting sia..
almost bcome a statue...
alright ytd i decided to buy the phone w660i...
nt bad...
gtg(tml the start of my hell day)
SAD;xue yi
Monday, November 12, 2007
alright took almost one whole week for me to recover...
everyday was very tired for me..
so sickening...
now my spine hurts again...
especially when i am coughing...
this few day really feel very pek chek...
can't control well my temper and feeling...
so stress up...
on sat i was really angry with my father...
what the fuck..
you thought u are my everything is it...
when u know that u r in wrong...
yet you don't want to apologise...
always like that de,
you are only my father by law...
but to me you are like nothing in my eyes..
bcos you have lost all your respect for me to respect you...
i juz simply don't understand y the word 'sorry' is so difficult to say???
a lot of adults juz simply don't want to admit that they are in wrong,
when they know the truth..
still want to prove tt they are correct but without evidence...
don't know how to communicate with them lah!!!
so fuck off man...(i mean those fucking adults nt all)
tmd make me scold vulgarities(is it lyk tt spell de?)...
fine i gtg...
got tuition today!!!
SAD;xue yi
Monday, November 5, 2007
alright i got to keep it short today...
i am in pain now...
juz bcos of a stupid fever and sore throat...
ytd woke up at around at around 8 am...
bcos i am feeling damn unwell...
after that i got a cup drink...
then try to slp again..
bcos i 4.30am then slp, juz can't fall asleep easily...
but i still can't get back to my dream land...
so i start to take my own temperature...
it's 37.3 degree Celsius...
so i msg clara to ask her whether i am having fever...
but she never reply...nvm luhs...
so i sms ly...
then she told me that i am going to get le...
then we sms each other for about an hour...
in the end i can't take it anymore...
my heads hurt a lot...
told her tt i nid to rest...
so go take temp. again...
37.5...
then it goes up and down...
38.2
37.7...
i don't how i manage to find some medi for fever so i took it...
then slept for a while..
wake up then take temp...
omg it goes up to 38.9...
then i took two ice pack to cool me down...
fortunately it went back to 37.6..
at night when i want slp liao..
i take temp. one more time...
38.2...
feeling damn sick..
i breathe thorough my mouth...
today i woke up at around 12 pm bah...
omg i am a pig!!!
my temp.: 37.2...
now my temp: 37.9...
damn it!!!
SAD;xue yi
Thursday, November 1, 2007
this few day i don't know why i was quite sad...
probably i juz can't let go ba...
can't let go the fact that i am very disappointed with myself...
the result for all subs.
n a lot of things...
i try hard to behave as normal as i can..
as happy as i can...
n it is also bcos i miss the class...
even though sometimes there's some misunderstanding n
unpleasant things which happen in class...
but i still miss the faces tt i m seeing almost everyday...
juz want to tell the whole class tt i am so sry for what i
have done n thk you for helping me thorough out the year..
and i miss u all!!!
today stay at home for the whole day...
then i had biscuits for lunch...
tasteless...
actually i don't intend to eat...
gtg..stop crapping liao..
SAD;xue yi
