i deliver my deadly speech
Friday, May 25, 2007
ever since that day i last update my blog the com was spoil...
i don't know how i use until it spoil...
but i was lucky that it was ok when my father use on that night or else he will
scold me and got mad over it...
nothing really happened on the past three days...
got that 'perform art appreciation day'...
it was quite lame actually...
i went for the vocal class and the teacher look like a bamboo stick...
then we had high-tea buffet...
was given a goodies bag...
got a water bottle, pen and a bandanna...
it was damn boring...
for the past few day i am really very angry with myself...
i also don't know why...
i did some self-reflection on why there's so many people that loathe me...
was feeling very down...
now i am really very hot-tempered...
a bit of things i will also become angry which i don't want to...
i juz don't have the courage to live but for the sake of some frens i am still breathing...
i dont't know when will i break down and eventually walk to the end of life...
was afraid that one day there might be no one talking to me anymore...
there's really no point to understand me
when i feel that there's only coldness in this world...
today had nasi lemak for the "BIG breakfast"
was feeling blue for the morning...
the nasi lemak wasn't very nice...
eat half of it and throw it away....
i really don't have the mood to walk around the sch when clara propose it...
so i juz stand there or sit at the bench...
then we went to the hall for the student forum...
it was very boring...
then kim start to tear paper and throw around...
then i took the small pink dog on my bag to put it on zi xuan hair...
but she didn't feel anyting...
i can sense that clara is angry with me...
but i am not sure...
after that we went back to class for area cleaning
bacause tml got the meet the parent session...
but mr teo sent both clara and i to help mdm wang
to put in the result slip into the report book...
after i return to class...
i took picture with mr teo and ching yee they all...
as mr teo i going to leave us....
after that i went to the sushi restaurant with lam yan and ching yee...
then go to phoebe house....
went home at 5pm like that...
think i am going to sch tml even though my parent are not coming
but i got nothing to do so i juz go to sch for fun...
and i don't want to stay at home also...
SAD;xue yi
died off at: 8:32 PM;
