i deliver my deadly speech
Monday, July 9, 2007
today i went mad again...
damn it in the morning that ng and vanan keep on calling us to run...
so clara they all ran first...
i was still limping so i couldn't go very fast...
then still muz sit down on the floor, then i put my leg straight...
when i get up i could only use one hand to get up...
and it's so difficult to do that...
and one more thing is that in the morning still need to see the mr vaahid
face...
still rmb that he wore like a bus driver ytd...
so funny cya!!!
anyway today his teaching also sux!!!
don't know what to say about him...
clara was laughing at his forehead then i join her...
but we didn't went mad...
recess went to knowledge zone with renuka and clara to
study the lit book as we thought there's test, but in the end there's
no test...
and one more thing is that ms hidaya came into our class and told
us that there's oral...
then i was like kind of shock by it and felt very unhappy about it...
but after recess the ms nadai came in and told us that it's postponed
to this fri...
then i was relief...
why am i so afraid of it because i am not prepared and had no confident...
now i am afraid of every test or exam...
like for example i never fail my maths and i get A1 for almost every time...
but i am still afraid that i will fail...
my confident was gone bcuz of our the words that hurt me too deep...
who will know the pain i had now???
the things that i experienced, the chances of people
experiencing it was low...
so why god choose me to go through this kind of things???
sometime life's too stress to carry on...
making me wanted to give up, but why there's people stopping me to
end it???
my existence doesn't a make a difference in this world...
anyway i went mad again...
today i laugh like hell when there's nothing really damn funny for me to laugh...
clara laugh i will also laugh...
we stayed back in sch...
she teach me the graph tingy cuz i miss it when i am absence...
blah blah blah...
got to stop...
addicted to the song-NEVER AGAIN by kelly clarkson
SAD;xue yi
died off at: 8:58 PM;
