i deliver my deadly speech
Monday, August 27, 2007
this few days was quite sad and boring for me...
hearing things that really hurts me deeply...
why muz i pretend that i heard nothing???
should i hate u or myself???
i think i am to be blame for everything that i did...
i am always wrong...
things that i do all never went smoothly...
take projects for an example...
it's always dragging...
i always don't have the time...
because of tuition or personal probs...
why am i so useless???
sometimes i feel that i am unwanted...
i am like a piece of rubbish, but mayb i am worse than a piece of rubbish
bcos some rubbish can be recycled...
today i come late to sch again...
late bcos, i think a lot then can't control my emotion anymore...
so as i walk i start to cry....(i think a lot of ppl on the street tink i siao ba)
stupid me!!!
after om (old man aka mr tan, wakakasss!!!jk jk...so bad of me)let me go...
i went to the toilet cry until enough then walk back to class...
no one realise it...
i am a good faker!!!
even though my heart is hurting like hell...
i still can laugh like as if i am really very happy...
anyway today i stayed in class after school to deco the class loh...
stayed until quite late then go serve RR...
sit they cut paper loh...
then Jasmine sit in front of me loh...
so sian...
today early dimiss...
then clara come...
after a while that hui peng(1n2) also come...
then i walk them to a certain distance then go home loh...
hui peng behave like les lyk that loh...
gtg le...
i can hear a bit kpkb outside the room...
SAD;xue yi
died off at: 9:17 PM;
