Monday, January 14, 2008
as each day past, the sadder i feel..
asking myself since when my existence in this world
becomes nothing..
am i dead in this world??
most significant evidence is that when i am
trying to talk everyone seems to ignore me...
every time when i was in a group or what so ever
i need to call a person name for more than three times
then there will be respond...(the worst is that no one
actually answered me)
another is that my blog actually die...
as my existences die down, i hate myself more..
hate myself for not knowing what did i done wrong..
or maybe my friends were tired of me..
sorry if i am a burden..
so can anyone point out to me what did done wrong???
sat i went for my tuition at the
afternoon...
the after tt when it was the time to go home..
it start to rain..
then in e end i wait for the rain to stop for abt 1 hr...
i also don't know why there's a grp of men looking at me for what???
it was sort of scary..
so when e rain turn small i juz dash across the road and almost kena
hit by a car...
hmm today was quite pathetic bcos only
hui ting n i stay back for e class decor...
i got to admit that she was gd to spent her time with me...
or else if i am alone i don't know what the hell am i going
to do to me...
juz can't be alone...
and i kena gastric again..
hais nvm i get used to it le...
so sick and tired of this awful life!!!
SAD;xue yi
Monday, January 7, 2008
am i being abandoned??
why am i feeling so empty?
a lonely soul..
an empty spirit..
live like a transparent human...
am i thinking too much or am i being too sensitive???
leading a life that i don't want to live..
with long term of sadness and a few short terms of happiness..
living was more like a hell for me..
if i hang on with it will i be able to overcome the sadness in me
and to lead a different life???
HATE myself for everything..
alright today during math lesson,
i really feel like commiting suicide..
the teacher explain until i very stress...
think i better ask my tuition teacher to teach me...
i was sort of having difficulty in breathing throughout the whole lesson...
oh god!!!
glad that i am not the only student who don't like her..
sld be over half the class don't like her ba..
then today kena dental appoinment again..
then tt nurse call me cod fish bcos of my chinese name...
hate it!!!
now i am feeling very stress...
hais..
still have to do the classroom decor..
deadline is on this fri..
if i am not in charge of that then i will not be so troubled by it...
nvm it's for the class...
i hate being that sad and emo..
but i juz can't help it..
damn it..
what's exactly wrong with me???
i want to give up!!!
SAD;xue yi (stress)
died off at: 8:33 PM;
Sunday, January 6, 2008
hais...wed, thu and fri got choir prac but i am so glad that
it's over..
on thu after choir prac...
hui qi, krystal, jia hui n me went to tm...
then after they eat we walk for a while..
since it was still early so i went to central park
with hui qi to tok..
i was back home at 9pm...
on fri after choir prac..
i went loitering..
then start to feel emo again..
so when i was on my way to tuition i don't know
why i start to cry in the bus...
i am feeling very stress at that point of time..
overwhelm by the stress of taking 8 subs...
so tired of living by now...
and one more thing is that..
i don't really like my E math teacher...
i will get heart attack bcos of her...
felt so irritated by e way she talk...
now i am looking for ppl to help me print for the english file
cover page...
hais it seems like everyone printer got prob..
even mine also...
gtg..
SAD;xue yi
