i deliver my deadly speech
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
hais this few days wasn't good for me...
feel like giving up on my studies..
and it seems like i start to hate to go to school...
feeling so empty inside my heart..
lonely also..
maybe i have become an invisible soul..
hais...
silent scream inside my heart..
not knowing who to talk to..
getting very upset with myself...
and i am going back to my emo side again..
why???
now having practically no one to talk to..
because all of them have their own problems
and they are also busy with other stuff..
who will care about me? this lowly character in the world..
start to hate myself once again...
hate myself for doing badly in my studies
when i know i can do it better...
hate myself for messing up my own life...
what i can feel now is that my friends are drifted further
and further away from me..
or maybe not..
or should i say that is i am the one who started to become
more anti-social?
i am so confused..
when i see my blood dripping and the pain i felt..
then i realise that actually i am still living in this world...
i always thought that i am already dead..
because i can feel nothing...
gtg..
SAD;xue yi (emo-ing again)
died off at: 9:17 PM;
