i deliver my deadly speech
Saturday, January 2, 2010
It seems like everybody is fine and happy without me in their life. After all I am not that important, it's a fact that I will try to accept.
"I can't live without you" , I think in this pathetic life of mine, I won't hear this. If someone tell me this I think it's quite hypocrite for that person to tell me this, I won't believe it 99%.
Human tend to forget the dead after 2-3 years after that person die. I won't expect myself to be remembered. I really want to die off now, yet I am struggling because of my mother.
"Can I leave you mommy? But I don't want you to face all this alone. I am struggling so much that I can't even focus on my studies. I have to worry so much for so many things? Can I stop my agony? Mommy I promise that I will perish with that person if I choose to end everything. Mommy I am not that strong that you think I am, I really love you."
died off at: 10:14 AM;
