i deliver my deadly speech
Saturday, March 5, 2011
I cried and sighed looking at myself, the poor state I am in. I used up all my willpower, waiting for a full recovery. So tiring. It seems impossible for me to attain a full recovery because I will always have a relapse whenever I am about to be fully recovered. Maybe having cancer is better than this shit I am having. The recovery time of cancer may take up to several months or years, but at least it's curable in some sense. How long is the recovery time of my condition? INDEFINITE!! Any changes in environment or lifestyle could trigger a relapse. And there are so many things to abstain from. How long can I still hold on?
died off at: 4:35 AM;