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i deliver my deadly speech

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Please define stupid and useless. The definition of stupid and useless is Jennifer Lee Xue Yi. I have already lost all the knowledge I have learned all these years. All my knowledge of science, mathematics, history, social studies and languages are all gone. What do I do?? I am completely stupid, useless and not talented at anything. What the fuck am I? A fucking ugly dumbass! Should I pursue back the knowledge I have lost? Then I need at least 8000 fucking dollars just to go to a private school for 10 months. Fuck! Money is everything in this fucking unfair world.

Sorry for the profanities above. Because I am fucking way too angry with the world and myself.

died off at: 12:30 PM;

Friday, April 15, 2011

I just cried looking at the computer monitor for 15 minutes. Am I crazy or just having PMS? Completely exhausted after crying like there's no tomorrow. And I really wanna say sorry to my mommy because I scolded her for nothing. (Well it's not really nothing, just something trivial and she's totally not at fault. Shall not explain further because I don't want to make me look very bad to you. haha.. =P) HEY Jennifer Lee Xue Yi!!! Please learn how to control your damn bad temper!!!!! Flaring up and losing your cool won't do you any good.

Recently my dear mommy has been asking me, " If I am no longer around you, will you be able to take care of yourself ?" I couldn't answer her because this question hit me really hard. After she left me alone in my room I started to weep. It makes me realize that I should really cherish her and those who care for me.

Dear Mom

I want to say so many things;
I don't know how to start.
I want to capture and describe
The feelings of my heart.

But words are so inadequate
To tell you how I feel
That scarcely any thing I say
Will my True thoughts reveal.

Just let it now suffice to say
That deep inside I know
My love for you is something
That I never will outgrow.

Your many special traits will always
In my heart combine
In such a way that you alone
A perfect mom define.

Your warmth and caring are the traits
That I am proudest of.
My future's brighter through
The fine example of your love.

Bruce B. Wilmer

I really love you, mommy!

died off at: 4:40 AM;