i deliver my deadly speech
Saturday, May 19, 2007
friday was so boring...
never bring my house key so i juz stay back in sch to read the book
that clara lent to me...
she can't accompany me cuz she got bball match...
so sit there and be in a daze for sometime...
met tina at the knowledge zone then had a short chat...
then she had to go for her CCA...
after that i went to chat with ms kanni...
whole day was so boring...
got back all the papers except for lit...
manage to pass all subject with a not bad mark the lowest only get C5...
but haven't confirm yet cuz still got lit paper...
but only get 2 A1 but my parent expectation is 3 A1,
then they will buy me a mp4...
when i tell them that i got all my subject they got no expression at all...
and still compare the result with my classmate's result...
keep on asking what's the highest score for my class...
and compare...
hate to be compared!!!
i really wanted to stop slashing stuff which i am doing to myself...
but why are you all keep on forcing me???
since from young, it seems like to my mother only remember things that my
brother had done...saying that he's cute when he was young...and all stuff all
about him...did she ever remember me???
i really don't want to hate my brother or anyone...
but they let me feel like i am abandon...
does it matter whether if i am exist or not???
most of the time after sch i was always very lonely...
no one accompany me...
no one talk to me...
always sitting alone in sch reading my books or walk around outside...
staying at home was like in prison...
most of the time, no one talk to me...
or i juz don't like to talk to anyone of them...
when i wake up today i went for bath...
then go for tuition...
was suppose to reach there by 8 am but i woke up late so i reach there
at around 8.45 am...
today had a revision on simultaneous algebra...
forgot how to do but...
but after doing a few question i start to remember it...
went home at nearly 11am...
bought a bottle of vitagen...
then went home and do nothing...
sleep for a while...
watch tv...
read books...
go online...
i felt very lousy...
why can't i do better for my exam???
what can i do for my friends???
why do the stupid boys in class don't like me???
am i that loathsome to people...
this start to let me hate talking to people...
SAD;xue yi
died off at: 11:33 PM;
