i deliver my deadly speech
Saturday, July 21, 2007
ytd ran that 2.4 km and had that stupid gastric pain...
i really have to agreed that i am damn stubborn...
i juz wanna say sry to clara abt my stubbornness...
really got to change myself (si bei difficult)
went for that meet the parent tingy...
but of course my parent never come...
as if they really care abt it...
i don't what to say about the sch for changing that subject combination tingy...
after knowing that they change the 3e4 i went really very stress...
i chose 3e4 and got in for the streaming is bcuz i no need to take triple science
i juz want that A maths that's all...
now 3e3 and 3e4 is the same le...
during that meet the parent tingy...
it make me confirm that majority of the parents
only care the result that their child is producing but not their feelings...
thinking of that make feel that this world is too cold...
after that i went to the toilet...
start punching and kicking the wall...
if there's no one i will knock my head against it...
i should have bring my penknife along...
so stupid of me...
STRESS
HATRED
SCARE
FEAR
NO CONFIDENT
i really doubt myself whether if i can do it...
after that i stroll back home...
i went to the playground to sit at the swing...
started crying...
i juz need to calm myself down...
so as to act as if there's nothing happen to me when my parent see me...
and i manage to do that...
i could actually smile in front of them...
but once i got into my room i started to cry again...
anyway i have to go for tuition tml...
sian lah...
i told myself not to give up on myself...
but it's damn difficult until i feel like
probably self-destruction suit me most...
SAD;xue yi
died off at: 9:24 PM;
