i deliver my deadly speech
Thursday, October 25, 2007
damn it my spine hurts like hell...
scare that i might need to have an operation...
what i can describe abt my feeling now is disappointed!!!!
disappointed with my result bcos i think i could do better
than it...
i never focus in the "not so important" subjects...
like d&t and art...
one more is lit...
i don't like this three subjects!!!
so i had done quite badly for it...
it sldn't be like this!!!
but no use already bcos it's over...
the fact is that this 3 subs have pull my result down!!!
damn it!!!so pissed off man!
hope that i will get in to 3e3 with ly they all...
i still rmb what i last spoke in the classrm which is : bye!
i mean i actually tok to the classroom...
stupid me...
i almost break down there...
but as i walk back home alone i really can't control myself
anymore so i broke down right outside the sch...
i think those ppl who saw might think that i am
crazy...
i agreed that sometimes i m really very siao n do things that
will amaze others...
then when i reach home...
there's no one so i cried bcos of my result...
cried several hours...
now my eyes were a bit swollen...
when i gave my report bk to my mother, it's the same no compliment...
but nagging...but i shout back at her to ask her to stop...
i m so bad n rude..
it sld be i am not fit to have any compliment from anybody...
probably she might b tinking tat my result sux!!!
one thing to comment about the recovery rm in sch...
what i can say that it's not effective on me...
it sld be time for reflecting your doing...
but it make me reflect why i am such a useless person...
and things that happened over the few yrs...
i really dt wan to cry but i juz can't control...
as the days past...
the more i feel that i am not important...
i will be easily forsake...
everyone will leave me one by one...(i mean not dead lah!!!)
bcos i have this painful experience that all my friends leave me
one by one...
bcos of one ppl badmouthing me...
i am feeling very insecure!!!
SAD;xue yi (lonely)
died off at: 7:03 PM;
