i deliver my deadly speech
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Recently my peace is being disturbed!!!
out of a sudden i was drag to the hospital to see a doctor!!!
may be that's due to my craziness..
peace being disturbed means it can't be bring back..
why am i getting all this???
why are they forcing me??i felt so angry!!! i hate that!!!
but will seeing a doctor will solve my fear for test/exams?or will it make my insecure heart to become secure?
i have lost my sanity, so it can't be help anymore...
what i need is someone who could understand me...i know it's difficult because even if i could find one, but i am so afraid that the person will take me as a troublesome person.. who keep on repeating the same stuff to him/her again and again..
on friday( 6-2-09) i went to IMH again..my parent were suppose to fill up a form about me..
as they fill up i realise that they don't understand me at all..
this make me feel so angry that i flare up..
and why my parent(especially my father) always thought that buying me new stuff will make me feel very happy..but that's not so true on me, it may work certain time..
but i am not that materialistic okay..
plus can i don't take all those stupid medication..including sleeping pills!!!
i don't need all this damn thing!!
yet i am being force to take it every night..!!!!
i don't want all those things anymore!!! all the cryings, pills, test/exams!!!
help!!!
i start to hate studying!!!it's so scary!!! because you don't know when will you fail and what if i do badly?????it means no future!!!
can everything end????
i want to destroy everything!!! can i just fly off from a building??
invisible:xue yi
died off at: 6:28 PM;
