i deliver my deadly speech
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Why compare us with others? What had you done that cause us to be like this? You blame me because I don't go to school, but it's not entirely my fault. I really want to tell you that you let me suffer those emotional stress for more than 5 years. I gave up on myself is because I can't persevere anymore. I can't handle my mom coming in late at night to complain to me about you while I'm studying, and I end up crying. Yet now you are asking me this question, 'you have quite a good brain but why aren't you using it?'. How am I suppose to answer?
You keep on saying that you are innocent of it. But your actions and behavior don't seems to be reflecting it. You deny is because we don't have evidence, it's not that we don't have it's just that we don't want to find. There's something I'm pretty sure which is it'll be the end if we go find it. Due to various conditions we just can't end this kind of relationship.
Who'll ever want to lead such an abnormal life like mine? I can't go out as I wanted I have to stay at home to play psychological warfare. Having to weep quietly and feel my skull to the brink of ripping apart..
So don't ever compare us to others. Because they are in a different condition. It's very unfortunate because I meet you in this life. As I go off one day, I'll bring you with me too to curb the pain they suffer.
Sitting silently in the wind, I can feel myself vanishing.
died off at: 5:48 AM;
